chocolate

most of the people in the world like chocolate.
no matter it is milk chocolate, fruity chocolate,dark chocolate and white chocolate and etc
they believe that chocolate is the best dessert and it can make people feel happy.
chocolate also stand for happiness and sweet love.
most of the people would like to use chocolate for decoration in the wedding as well.
it is a best present for couple who in love.

for me..will be different story.
when i was a child..my aunt everytime come back from Australia,she will buy alot of chocolate for me and i like to eat it so much until i get sort throat.and the next day, my mom will bring me to the doctor because i get fever.

now i grown up..and 20 year old this year..chocolate for me is a food that make me sad and down.last year my friends invite me for a steamboat dinner.i'm so happy because i damn long never see them and i miss them alot.during the dinner time,we are enjoying our dinner and conversation that we talked.near end of the dinner,one of my friend,catherine.she went to scoop the ice cream for me and it is a chocolate flavour.i will be as usual,straight away put the ice cream into my mouth.i don't know how it is happen to me.my tear keep on drop in the dishes and i cried very loud.all my friend are get shocked and thought that i have personal matter.maybe it really a personal matter and it make me not dare to have any chocolate dessert.

in this moment, sad feeling and problem come against me.should i open the chiller and have a bar of chocolate to release my feeling which every time problem come to me and i cry it out?or meet up my friend with a fake emotion,example like pretending smile in front of him/her?
i don't really know what i should i do currently..hate chocolate and love chocolate as well..

remember

if you see her in future,

please do help me say hi to her.

tell her that I'm fine,

tell her I don't love her anymore,
don't care about her anymore

wish all my luck to her new life
my tear will never drop because of her.

even you know that I'm still think of her and love her.

miss her called me baby,
miss her smile,
miss her cheer me up,
miss the fragrance she always use,
miss her high heel put in my wardrobe.

please remember..

before and after..

Just finish my 2nd internship training..what a confusing emotion in my mind.At 1st i hate this hotel so much and the staff there are very terrible and horrible especially the staff in pastry kitchen.all the staff who working there is ladies.i'm regreted that i didnt listen to some people who had experience with those barbaric and want you to know everything in the operation in the 1st day. .oh ya.. the hotel name Holiday Inn Glenmarie..is located near Shah Alam’s exclusive residential and commercial areas.The Holiday Inn Glenmarie offers today's business and leisure travellers dependability.

All 260 rooms and suite offer breathtaking views of landscaped gardens or the golf course.It have 2 restaurant are new refurbished,Kites Restaurant and Fu-Rin Restaurant.Kites is a restaurant with a relaxing terrace that overlooks a landscaped garden and swimming pool. It offers a wide variety of local and continental fare as well as a wide selections of snacks.Simpify to say is serving morning breakfast,lunch buffet and dinner buffet for daily.Saturday and Sunday with have hi-tea buffet and will have additional dishes in dinner buffet.for me i won't choice this restaurant as my dining place.


Fu-Rin offers authentic Japanese cuisine. A cobbled path leads to the door and the neutral colour creates a cozy ambience. There's a tatami room, two private rooms, a sushi bar and a teppanyaki counter.Fu-rin are serving ala carte for weekday,saturday are serving dinner buffet and sunday lunch also serving lunch buffet.This restaurant very profersional on what they doing there,especially the sushi bar.they serve the most fresh sashimi and sushi to the guest and they respect every food they serve to the guest.the staff in this restaurant is very friendly and if you are working there,you will feel the warm of the people .It is very different with the other restaurants in the hotel.etc;a manager do briefing with the staff and keep on saying or scolding F words.

at 1st i really hate this hotel so much after i join Fu-Rin,people in Fu-Rin is the one who change my mind to love it.Fu-Rin Restaurant is 1 of the restaurant that i will think to join back.no matter in kitchen or service.eventhough i know that i very weak in time management and late to work all the time but both of the point i will try to do my best to change it.I wish to say again thank you very much to all of you guys for tolerate and endure my attitude.you guys teach me alot in my life and be part of my journey.love you guys..

人往往會恨鐵不成鋼，不能冷靜行事。

學會謀算人心 爭鬥競逐 也是人最基本的生存方式。

心機也代表著個人的智慧。

鐵口直斷，逢兇化吉

清者自清 公道自在人心

狡辯也代表著掩飾自己的過錯

是非對錯已太多

圣賢有云:知錯能改，善莫大焉

但是我認為知錯能改也改的合時

不然也一樣沒用 言語往往比文字更容易表達心裡的想法

學會聆聽才能學會明白

往往最殺人欲無形的

并不是施法下咒

而是

空穴來風

這四個字

斗不过就要认命 诡计技穷 事未如愿就要认输

一山還有一山高，外面的世界優秀的人多得是

3 important things in my life

recently nothing much happen on me.beside training change a new dept and i still in training and have a severely sickness make me spend alot on medicine.now is 3.50am friday may 22 2009.i'm still awake listen to music and all my housemate already sleep like a baby.
during i sick i realize 3 thing are very important will come to me.

1st is my family..they're the 1 who really care and worry about me. i trying so many way not to make they worry,but failed.because no matter how i hard i try,they will still the same care me like a baby,spoon feed me if they can.anyway..i will put family as 1st place in my heart.because they are my family.family stand for what?
F Father

A And

M Mother

I I

L Love

Y You

2nd is my friend.my friend are my 2nd place.when secondary school i will put friend at 1st place..nonono...gf also is 1st place hahaha...now is different story.when i getting older ,the way i thinking also will change..let me explain why i choose friend at 2nd place..because my house have 6 people right now including me..but the person who next to me all the time is the one didnt ask anything any about me..not say that i want to push all the fault to him..but please la..at least you tolerate abit la...quite disappointed.but is ok..now i know the rules and regulation to be myself..


3rd is lover..now i dont have any partner or gf..but if i really have 1 i think she will take care of me,cook for me,bring me to doctor for check up...haha i think i dream alot..anyway,really want to meet an angel appear in my life again.

new housemate part 1

last 2 months i moved to a new place;Ridzuan Condo.nearby my college around 5oo to 800m.i stay in 19th floor with 5 handsome,wisdom and sexy guy in 1 house.haha..sure no one believe it..

intro to you my room mate 1st.
his name Shane.20 year old.taking BDH culinary art in Taylor's college currently.talented and charming.he is the one of the best attitude people i ever met.never get angry easily and seldom show his emotion around the people he know or just meet.he like joke.some very very lame joke you never heard before might be come from him.i met him is someone ask me to be his commis.i forgot who the person,sorry..Shane is a very potantial chef.when the time i be his commis,he very quiet and all his concentration will put on the dishes he have to prepare on the day.sometime i will angry him never communicate with commis.he quite attractive some of my friend will ask me about him and praising him.seriously,i'm jealous at the side.now he is my roommate.lots of the time he have to endure me because when i sleep i will snore very loud.sorry again to my roommate have to endure my loud sleeping sound for 9 months.



next,my housemate kenry.19 year old.taking diploma in hospitality management.abit difficult to see his face from this photo however this is one of the photo i grab from facebook.ambition is to be photographer but don't know why he is in management course..creative,dare to try everything he never experience before,sometime funny and sometime very serious guy.quite hard to read his mind.he will satisfied his spend on a camera that i don't even know what model is that.he have the protential to be a photographer or designer.he like to take photo which is naked.not say that he like naked body but he like original and pure.especially body language and art.for me,he is a very trendy people on fashion or lifestyle.most of the stuff and equipment in the house i think is from him..he is our house minister of cleanliness.he very hate to see people finish eating the food and throw the plate or bowl in the basin without wash..i'm one of the person are like to do that kind of bad habit,very lazy.



chun beng.21 year old.taking BDH in culinary art.same class with Shane.also is Shane buddy.our house minister of sexual.sound very dangerous for the girl right?actually not.he is kinda of outside look ugly and inside of his heart are warm and good.just like smelly tofu selling on wednesday cheras night market.if you don't believe try and know about him but don't eat him.why i call him minister of sexual?because in his emoicon got alot of sexual organ and he lke to say dirty word not to girl or human but to my dog yoyo.i know him when last time i was shane commis.his work station is next to shane.so sometime i do help him because he always cant find a commis to help him.his face always look sleepy for me and talk also got the lazy sound.

sensitive issue

--damn long never post my current lifestyle in here..well..training prior in holiday inn Glenmarie,not a really good hotel for working there..

--move to a new place,new housemate,new environment..lots of fun..not sex fun..ok!?break up with my girl with some reason i not really like it..but it is over..thank you for those ugly pussy mouth around me and her..

today was a boring day for me because it is a end of for me working in golf club.this golf club not really suit me to work in there..ok back to the topic today..today i woke up around 2 pm.quiet comfort day for me to sleep.when i came out from the room everyone are sitting on the living watching tv..so i continue to do my daily stuff.brush my teeth, make a late breakfast for me and my dog.ding dong..ken is back..he bought a magazine that i like to read last time;men uno..one of the men magazine in malaysia..for malaysia,men magazine are very limited in here.not like other country.i was surprised he bought it..i told ken last time i always bought this magazine.he reply my word:"i never thought you so manly..". for me,i'm a sesitive guy who hate about homosexual issue.especially about me..i seldom tell people what the reason my girl broke up with me last time.the reason we break up is someone around me and her gossip about me and mention to her that i date with a guy and i'm a homosexual.maybe i like to act like a girl and the way i talk is abit gentle.plus people do tell me that i got attitude problem.yea..maybe i do have this kind of problem..now i'm changing it and pls do give me sometime to change it.i wish i can be like other normal guy.walk like a men,eat like a men and body build like a men.too bad,three point here are not on me..i feel disappointed and shame when i look at myself in the mirror with a naked body.have a skinny body,thin waise that most of the women in the world want it,boylish face..i never ignore any homosexual,just i can't really accept i have that kind of attitude.do i have to angry my parent born me in this kind of way or mad about the people in this world are too unfair?